I was just thinking about it. Cos I was just thinking that if it were in the past, I would have put aside my studies and would have just gone to East Coast Park with them without much thought. But the thought of going there and sometimes being reminded constantly to look after some of them and the thought of going there and feeling out of place makes me not feel like going. But a part of me still feels like going and having fun,especially with them, perhaps I wouldn't feel out of place there at all.And it would be nice to relax and have fun..what with promos so near..
In the past few outings we had, it was no doubt fun and I had a great time. Though at times the going was tough, but nevertheless, it still bonded us. I think its just make or break at such events.
Maybe it'll be a good thing after all la..cos maybe I'll finally be able to study.
and all thats left now, are memories♥ 11:29 PM
Saturday, August 23, 2008
The Christmas thing was supposed to involve all of us. Or so I thought. Perhaps they could have thought of involving us right from the start. Because its like now, everybody don't know what it is about and when we're asked to give our opinions, to me, its like give what opinions when I don't know whats going on and when you all have already like planned everything out?
Actually I know that feeling left out is common. Its not like people intentionally leave you out. Its just that you cannot please everyone at the same time. I know that. And it would be best and just let things pass by till things are better. But to me, its one of the greatest betrayals friends can give. To me, its like "Oh, you're not good enough to be part of us." that sort of thing. It makes me bitter, makes me hate, makes me angry, and makes me isolate myself. Because if you don't know a person well, it doesn't matter if they leave you out. The closer you are, the greater the betrayal.
But in church, its difficult to maintain a passive relationship after so many things we do together. That just makes the betrayals even deeper and harder. It really takes alot alot of effort to put all these setbacks behind me and move on. Alot of prayers, alot of thinking, alot of trying to understand. But it just keeps happening and I'm sick of it all.
Just pull me through Lord
and all thats left now, are memories♥ 10:44 PM
I dont really like the Olympics. Well its good for those people who win but what happens to those who trained so hard and in the end get their hopes and dreams dashed? Like they really do their best and still fail to achieve what they dream for. Worse still, they do not have another chance to try again..cos it might be their last Olympics.
I hope Li Jiawei will continue to play though. At least for maybe one last Olympics. Maybe then she'll be able to make her dream come true=) And I hope she'll make her dream come true
and all thats left now, are memories♥ 1:53 PM
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Pissed.
and all thats left now, are memories♥ 6:45 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008
With exams round the corner, things are heating up and getting kind of stressed Thought perhaps today might relieve some of that stress.. but who knows?it didnt and instead made me more stressed and kind of disappointed.. And I'm wondering how long I can live with it..
I hate fast food!! Lol=)
And I think I really truly have decided to just let things be. When people told me you were cold, I used to say no, thats not true. But now perhaps its kind of true..and its getting harder to talk to you. But maybe its me too. But well, people change..I used to know you well, perhaps as well as myself.. Now its a totally different thing. But at least we knew each other so well once=)
Anyway,looking on the bright side, SINGAPORE'S TABLE TENNIS IS IN TO THE FINALS! super happy=) GO SINGAPORE!
and all thats left now, are memories♥ 11:15 PM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!
We're supposed to meet at city hall in bout an hour's time but I dont know whether or not to go!!!Gahs. Should I go for the sleepover thing too??
And I havent touched any of my hmk yet....
and all thats left now, are memories♥ 2:33 PM
Friday, August 08, 2008
It the first day of the long weekend at last!! Been looking forward to this for dont know how long..hah Went for the movie screening with the entire JC1.It was so fun and high=D
I want this weekend to last forever!!!!!!!!hahas
and all thats left now, are memories♥ 5:50 PM
Saturday, August 02, 2008
Had a busy week!!! And there was choir farewell ytd night..I'll miss them!! Theres this very scary bruise on my hand since thurs lo. Hope it goes off soon.
think I'm going for FOP later. Shall chiong written report first
